Tempting

It's so tempting to just let yourself give up. To let go of everything and all the truth that you had. It's so easy to let down your guard and just go and get lost in the flow. When I sit back and relax it's easy to forget the reason why I was standing before. It's easy to lose your place and wander off and just forget about all that you were doing. Sometimes we pray for things like this. To just have an end. To just be done. To finish.

But how can I finish? There is no way that I'm done with everything. There are still people lonely, depressed, and worse off than me. How can I sit back and be fine with all of that? It's so tempting to allow myself to forget the faces of people that I know need someone. It's tempting to try and hide myself in a room alone so that people don't have to come and ask me for help. And it's so tempting to think that I really can live all alone. All by myself. All alone.

Is that really the way that I am supposed to live? Isn't life supposed to be free? Why am I still living in my own captivity? Can I get up and move, or will I sit frozen? Can I hear the words that are written down? I am free, and there is nothing that can shake me or break me into temptation. Maybe if I say that I'll never deal with it all again, right? I'm free, right? I'm free.

If I say I'm free, than I'm free, right? Or am I? Or will I? Can't I? Will I just sit here and question myself? Or will I do something that could change someone else? True joy is found in the son, but what happens if I can't see him? Can I? Will I?

Yes. There is only one answer.

Searching for an Answer

People are always searching for something to fulfill them and they never find it. I have been struggling with this for some time now. I know God is the only way I should go but I feel like I am always trying to find a way to get out of that. I just went to my Youth Group ad it was really great we talked on The Bible, which you might think that that is always what youth group, is but this one we talked about how God shows himself in his work and through his work. And i didn't realize how much He shows us that we pass by everyday. I still have a hard time finding God sometimes but He is every where and you don't even have to search to find something that will fulfill you all you have to do is open your eyes. And the only way to open your eyes is for Christ to heal your blindness. I need that to happen in my life so that I can follow my Lord.

Jesus is My Answer

The Bible says that if we call on His name, we will be saved

 "For whosoever shall call upon the name of 

              the LORD shall be saved." Romans 10:13 (KJV)

My Answer 

Jesus is the answer to everything when we open up our hearts to accept Him and take on the opportunity to trust in Him.  Unfortunately, I have to keep learning this truth the hard way.
Sometimes it feels like there is no one holding me, that I am alone, that God just isn't really with me anymore or even out there at all! It is all beyond false, no mater what I let myself believe, though,  (THANK GOD!) because He is ALWAYS with me, and ALWAYS there to help me through!

A couple of my favorite verses include encouraging promises from God:

"May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant."  Psalm119:76

"... because God has said 'Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.' So we say with confidence, 'The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?'"  Hebrews 13:5-6

I have been through a lot of hard times, lately in particular, just like everyone else. I've felt alone for reasons I couldn't control, discontent because of present circumstances, unloved because of people I didn't have, broken because of mistakes I couldn't take back, helpless because of things I couldn't fix, left behind just because of how things turned out, scared of outcomes over which I had no say,  and so on.
 Granted,  sometimes I may put the problems on myself. This might be because I am ashamed, or believe the lies that are in my head. In those cases I wouldn't have ever had such issues if I'd just confessed my faults to someone or brought my troubles to God; But instead, a mountain was left to build up deep inside of me.  Regardless, life (and sin) present real problems and real hurts. We've all been through them and will always go through them until the day we are with Jesus in Heaven.

Often times I try and hide my problems, and God is the last person I want to talk to.  Usually I don't want to talk to anyone at all! This isn't to say that I don't ever want help or that I don't want peace or answers. Of course I do!  The sad thing is that I look for security elsewhere. I'll waste away my time on the computer hoping for a sense of purpose, drown out my life by listening to music or watching other people's lives on TV, cry until all I feel like doing is dying, mope, or, (rarely) I will talk to someone.  
.BUT.
The real answer, and the real hope, is found in Christ alone! God dose give us people in our lives to help us, but He wants us to go to Him, too, because He knows what's best for us, and He is always what is best.

"Then you will call and the Lord will answer, you will cry for help, and He will say 'HERE AM I'" Isiah 58:9

Although I never FEEL like going to God at first, once I choose to, I feel His peace wash over me. I know that I can talk to Him about anything, that He knows everything already, and that I can ask Him for anything.  A lot of times I ask Him for wisdom or for the desire to go to Him.  He gives me so much! The key is to ask.  He will give, but He wants us to ask Him first.  He wants us to want the gifts He can give, and to have true gratitude in our hearts.

When I go to my King He is more than a Father, more than a perfect ruler, more than a Friend and a helper; He is my life, my salvation, my happiness and joy, my strength, my security, my all in all and so much more!  God is always looking out for me and wants what is best for me.  He will help me through anything in my life. What a privilege it is to  be able to lean on Him and give up my burdens to Him.  He is the answer. He wipes away my tears.

..The path to life.  In Him we don't just survive, we LIVE and have life everlasting!  

"Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."  Matthew 11:28-30 

 How has Jesus been your answer?

LOVE

In the center, I find the answers
All the things you can do, are much more than I knew
Maybe the whole time I was so captured by your beauty
So much of you blew right through me
Overall I had the greatest downfall
More than that, you picked me up and gave me my life back
And the end, never came, and we can spend
Days on days, together, and all I can say is
Love, is the the only drug
You are the only one that makes me feel so happy
Inside I am exploding as you take me on this ride
Never will I ever
Live to see the things that truly kill me
Only you, can make me move
Vigorous activity, satisfies me vehementally
Every time, I see you smile it makes me, so happy.

I know that I am just a young man, with a young heart
But I have always loved you from the very start

Dear, God
The first part was for you,
Dear, love
This next part, I want you to listen to.

I know that I am just a young boy
And I have no singing voice
Maybe I should have left you be
Stuff like this gets so wierd for me
Only you, are the girl I choose
If I could have someone, it'd be you
Never forget, that I will be right here
Love is something that you don't have to fear
On time, I will try my best to be
Very hard, I will work forever for you to see
Everytime, I am so lost in love when you look at me.

I love you so much I could just hold your hand and run away
I know, I wont see you for more than twenty days
And a year, but that is not a reason for me to give up
Because my love for you is something that I can't stop.
And I thank God for you each day
And I will pray, that we don't have to part ways.

I love you both.

Continue

         Honestly so many things are in our lives that will try their best to take our dreams and get rid of them all. It feels like you can't do anything, because honestly what is your name? Who would care to know you and hear about your dreams at night?

        We tell ourselves that we are insignificant and alone and helpless, but that is the furthest thing from the truth. You have a purpose, and You are destined to do great and amazing things in life. So many things will try to make you back track and give up. People will tell you that it's impossible. When people say that, I should be even more happy, because I can achieve the impossible.
        
        What do you want to be? A writer, docter, athlete, business man, singer? Go at it with all your heart. Sometimes dreams may fail, but there is no need to give up. Keep going until there is not more ground that can be stood on. Don't ever let someone tell you that you can't do anything. The truth of what you can do, lies on how much you will believe you can do something.

        My dream is to bring LIFE. People tell me that being nice or that loving people no matter what will just leave me used by people and taken advantage of, but honestly, if that means helping them and making them feel loved, then go ahead. I will never forget that I need to love and bring life. I choose no matter how bad my circumstances are that I will keep on moving on. Looking back is not an option for me, because I know that it only will make me fall over.

       Even when you feel like turning back, just remember the one person that is there always. He is watching you and is always there, if you just alow Him to. Don't ever forget about the one person who will be there more than anyone.