Tragic American Life

  
            America has been ok but it's the judgement I'm afraid I'll get when I go to school. I'm a tom-boy/ slash girl but I love to get messy and weird! A couple days ago i stepped in mud and a girl was like "Ugh! That is so GROSS! You should get it clean!" And I was like in my head, it's mud. God made dirt, dirt won't hurt! If only she grew up in Africa she would understand! I mean it's not my fault she was stuck in the middle of the World of Plastic! Whatever...
  
              I'm a nerd and I'm proud to call myself one. I'm actually not afraid of what people think. Here in America I get along better with boys 'cause I like video games and comic books and what not. I always try to get into a conversation with a girl about those things but all they care about is make-up and boys. It's so frustrating! One girl was saying she was trying to read Lord of the Rings. and I got into this whole talk about it. A "talk" with myself. She just sat there and looked at me. I know this one girl who is a math wiz and she is in my grade. Then the horrible question came along when I was talking to her. "Well, I like Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Batman, Hunger Games, X-Men, and so on..." She looked at me and nodded an smile awkwardly.
      
            Anyways, I'm not your average teenage American girl. I'm different and God made me that way. I hope I can find someone as great as you Liz who understands me.
                                                
                                                  I found this quote that applies to this kinda:

            If I'm weird around you,

           It's because I'm comfortable.

~Amber

Welcome to the wonderfull world of weekends and too much cake

I don't really know what to write about right now that has to do with faith and what not. Lately I've found that what I say only wrecks things. I don't know what to say about God anymore, and frankly I don't know exactly how to think of Him. I'm a little lost about everything becuase it seems like diferent people tell me diferent things, and I don't know what God is trying to tell me.  Maybe He isn't trying to tell me anything right now. 

I have learned a cupple things tonight though.  One was that God totaly dominates witch doctor birds. Aparently we heard one. Sarah wouldn't tell me what a witch doctor bird is, but I'm not sure I wanted to know. I got freaked anyway, so me and Jericho prayed and I felt alot better. Another thing I learned was that teenagers, no matter what, I think go looking for awkward conversations about "likeing" people and what not. It's really weird to tell you the truth. Even though I am that way too, I think it's not so good and veryy weird.  The last thing I learned was that music REALLY afects my mood.  Screemo definitly calms me down and makes me feel like I've unlocked the door to my real mind, but it also makes me feel like I'm in a deeper world that is a bit sad. It also always makes me think of Timmy, and makes me miss him.  On the other hand, Ryan plugs in his iPOd and plays ska and I feel compleatly diferent. Happy I guess, but a happy that has no where to go and nothing to think about or do. 

Our suprise party for Ryan went well tonight. I had alot of fun. I'm really thankfull for my friends and I'm also really thankfull to have guy friedns as well. My mom told me she didn't really talk to guys untill 9th grade but I guess in Malawi when there are not that many people to be friends with it just happens that you talk to boys.

Well... I'm tired. It's 1:00 and I'm so tired.  I guess I will go to bed soon. 
Jesus loves you ;P 
-liz