Jake Luhrs Testimony

This is Jake Luhrs, lead vocalist of August Burns Red, and this is his testimony. I was really inspired by it and found it relatable somehow. God is so amazing and can change lives. It's wonderful.

Just be faithful

"never live by feelings, just be faithful."  That's what My pastor's wife said her dad always used to tell her. it's really good advice but for me it's really hard.  We're supposed to live only by God's will. I've been learning about that. And that means basically not paying attention to what I want and what I feel but only God's, and that's what is best for me.
And I mean, look at Jesus!  He humbled Himself so much and came here for us. To teach us, to be a servant, to DIE!  DO you think He really really WANTED all that pain and non luxury?  (I mean yes because He is God and He wanted to save us and help us) But He was paying attention to what the Father had in store for Him and what He had to do. FOR OTHERS.  It's very not based on feelings and how one wants to do something. I know for sure I don't always, and don't much live that way, and I need to.  Obedience to God and persevering through trials is what will strengthen my faith and grow me. Obedience is what we are commanded to practice and that basically means dieing to self and living in Christ alone.  That's hard, but amazing.
The minuet I decided to give it a try and surrender to God - to ask Him for His direction, to give me His will, take mine and give me a whole haerted love for Him - I felt better. Stress was lifted. Life was a little easier. A smile has been on my face and I have time to focus on other people instead of only freaking out.  It's a long process and every detail of life isn't insta-fixed, but God is the key - Jesus is the bread of life.  Experiance has shown His word to be true and Hid promisses fulfilled. he is a gracious and beautiful Father. It is more than ever imagined - even on earth my Savior never seces to leave me aw struck and on my knees. 

Remember

If I am a Christian, than why do I

Sit in my sin and tell myself filthy lies

If I say I am saved

Then why do I keep running to be enslaved

And why am I not mindful of your tears?!

For me…. For it’s worse than your fears.

 

God, why do I push on past?

Why do I wish to make my death last?

I hear your voice and I stare at your eyes,

But in the end I am still allowing your cries…

And I’m lost again; oh I’m running away again,

When will I remember when I wanted this to end…

 

 

If I really loved you like I said

Then why do I allow this to go on in my head

If I say that I’m yours

Than why do I lock myself behind closed doors

And why am I sick in corrupted heart!?

For me… I am worse than I was in the start.

 

God, why do I push on past?

Why do I wish to make my death last?

I hear your voice and I stare at your eyes,

But in the end I am still allowing your cries…

And I’m lost again; oh I’m running away again,

When will I remember when I wanted this to end…

 

And it all started with the end

The memories of the past start to blend

Together forever, that’s what I said,

But did I really mean it, inside this poor head!?

 

Am I really that blind!?

Am I really that lost inside…

 

I hear your voice and I stare at your eyes,

But in the end I am still allowing your cries…

And I’m lost again; oh I’m running away again,

When will I remember when I wanted this to end…

Dear, Summer

To be honest, what am I doing?
Has it gone this far before I realized,
That the words that i'm using
Are corrupted by my poor eyes...
And now my heart, and then,my soul..
Oh please tell me.. what was the goal?

Because I go on and on
Doing what I do, but never questioning if it's wrong,
But I say it's right!

And the air pressure is tight,
In my head!
How long have I gone on..after my heart bled..

Am I doing what I want,
Because if I am, then why do I feel horrible inside?
In my mind, the images haunt,
Because I don't want this, but it's here even though I've tried...
And forever I've wondered what I'll be when i'm old,
But this is not... The dream I sold...

Because I go on and on
Doing what I do, but never questioning if it's wrong,
But I say it's right!
And the air pressure is tight,
In my head!
How long have I gone on..after my heart bled..

Good boys, I've never been that one
But my excuse is, I think there might be none...
I create a scenario when I'm ok,
But to be honest I don't know if I can live like this one more day...

Oh heart has it been this long..
Until I realized what I did was wrong...

Dear, Winter

Lost inside the white inside the face

It’s like the roses filled your cheeks, before you came and froze all this life

It’s like the moon and stars were placed in your eyes

A smile almost chills all of this place

And your hands, oh sweet winter time

Please, come put them safe in mine.

 

Guiding all the happiness in and out of my coat

I am not one to, but now I have to boast

Of all the joy the cool breeze brings around me

Without you, oh what would I ever be?

 

Take off my gloves and feel my hands freeze

This great time you’ve brought, is all that I can see

Your appearance is blinding at this sweet season timing

Come back, come back, and share more seasons with me.

 

Your hair the misty winds with that sweet smelling scent

Even beauty is here when the sky collects your cries

Calming peace, can be found in your snow eyes

I’m lost in this reverie, the only day dream that I meant

And your arms, oh sweet winter time

Please, let me wrap you mine.

 

Guiding all the happiness in and out of my coat

I am not one to, but now I have to boast

Of all the joy the cool breeze brings around me

Without you, oh what would I ever be?

 

Take off my gloves and feel my hands freeze

This great time you’ve brought, is all that I can see

Your appearance is blinding at this sweet season timing

Come back, come back, and share more seasons with me.

 

Don’t forget me, when you leave me,

And don’t lose the heart, that you take when you leave me,

Just remember to visit at least once a year

And each and every day I will wait for you to re-appear

 

Your appearance is blinding at this sweet season timing

Come back, come back and share more seasons with me,

Come back, please come back, and share just one more season with me